Of course because I am not afraid to say that I have shared the processes that I have lived with my body, the encounters, misunderstandings, having grown up so small and having been in an environment as strong and powerful as television is. It opened a lot of doubts to me, saying things like: ‘I don’t measure up’, ‘I’m not good for this’, and that things have happened to me like having gotten sick, having felt my family far away. Suddenly all those things have been food to be the person I am today. I definitely have a lot to learn along the way but every day I bet on the things I want for my life. I love to put on the table and say that many times I do not feel capable. I have worked on my safety and on my self-esteem issues a lot in life, but this has not limited me to throw myself into the void just the same.
Yes, I feel insecure like anyone, but I dare. I also doubt, I do rolls, but I dare and every day more. And it is a pattern that I have recognized in my life that when I feel that things are not starting to go well I want to run. I always have that feeling, but now I let myself be helped. In the case of the film, I let Gianella help me.
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Why do you think you have that pattern of feeling insecure and wanting to run when something doesn’t work for you?
Well, I think the beginning of this movie has a lot to do with that, with healing ties because I think that’s where it all begins, with the family. I have the image of my mother working as a collector and my daddy who is now in heaven driving the car and all day my brothers and I were left alone and sometimes we needed help.
And it is not that our parents did not want to be with us, they wanted to raise the family, and suddenly you are growing and you ask yourself questions and you are alone and you make decisions or draw conclusions that, if you do not have a positive result, make you feel that you are not capable when you are. Or suddenly you put energy into something that is not for you and you say ‘yes, well, I’m actually useless’ and it is not that, but your energy is not in the right place and suddenly those things happened to me a lot in life.